Occasionally I go through old journal entries to see where my mind used to be and how I've grown. Sometimes I come across entries that are relevant to whatever I'm going through currently. Last night I found a document on my computer entitled "Growing Pains." I wrote it on October 10, 2014, right before my TSW journey began. However, I had just dealt with a few major eczema flare ups over the summer, anxiety attacks, and I was still dealing with massive insecurity in my then relationship. I was at a point where I thought everything was about to go one way, but my life took a drastic 180 in the opposite direction. I was frustrated and really forced to examine myself, as I have been forced to do during this entire process. I've had more down time than ever before, so I've done a lot of reflecting, and I've really been able to ponder my purpose and what I ultimately want. Even though the below entry is not specifically about healing, it's reflective of where my mind was before this process started, and it has reminded me of why I'm going through all of this. This process has humbled me and brought me to my lowest low so that I can be rebuilt from the ground up, layer by layer. It's been no walk in the park, but I know that after this I'll be better than I ever was before. So here's to growing pains!
I try to stay positive when I write this blog, but honestly, this journey has not been all dandelions and rainbows. I’ve learned a lot, vastly improved the condition of my skin and overall health, and I’ve even been able to connect with other people who suffer from the same symptoms that I do, however it often feels like every time I take one step forward I end up taking two steps back. My initial plan was to get a new post up every week, but half of the time I’m just trying to figure out what triggered my skin to break out this time or why everything I’m doing doesn’t seem to be working. This past month I’ve spent a lot of time researching and reading other people’s blogs for inspiration.
In my last post I talked about leaky gut and why I'm on The GAPS Diet. If you have no idea what I'm talking about, check out "Leaky Gut, The GAPS Diet and Nutrition Response Testing." What I didn't tell you was how I jumped into GAPS completely unprepared! If anyone is considering taking on GAPS or any other type of healing protocol puhleeeeeaaaaaaase learn from my mistakes. I caused myself a lot of unnecessary stress with these 4 mistakes.
I'm Lauren, aka Just Du Pree, and I want to thank you for reading. This is a space where I share my very personal journey healing from eczema and topical steroid withdrawal (among other things), life lessons I've learned along the way, and occasionally the thoughts of an awkward Black girl (no Issa Rae). I'm a performer and filmmaker, so if you feel so inclined, pop over here to see what goes on in my mind on the regular. If you like what you see, you can stay up to date with my work here. Much love, friends!