For the fourth month in a row I’ve waited until the very last minute to write my post for the month. Even though I usually know what I’m going to post about well in advance, I continue to procrastinate, because I keep picking these topics that hit very close to home and force me to examine, critique, and better myself. Yay! So much fun…that’s sarcasm if you didn’t catch it. A few nights ago I procrastinated by making an epic playlist of my favorite R&B songs from the 90s and 2000s. You should definitely listen because I have amazing taste in music and this playlist is nostalgic af: https://open.spotify.com/playlist/6IMgR9w03EQRDNoP7ZA2Qr?si=qeCJvcbFSs-EkyHzuKkCsA
Welp, that’s enough avoiding the hard truths for now. You want to know what it’s like being an independent, high functioning, chronically ill person, and I’m going to tell you, but first let me give a brief history for context.
On May 29th I turned 30 years old and Just Du Pree The Blog turned four years old. I had no idea what I was getting myself into when I launched this blog, but I’m still here, writing and sharing my truth. These past four years have been a major period of transformation and growth; this blog being a huge part of that process. Even still, as I approached 30 I battled with many thoughts of inadequacy and fell down the trap of comparing myself to others.
In April 1, in the year of our Lord 2019, I stopped using my eczema medication. In the last few updates I talked about how the medication wasn't working as well, and I wasn't sure what I needed to do. Well after getting a stronger prescription and upping the applications per day, I still wasn't getting favorable results. It's always been my goal to heal naturally and eliminate the use of steroids, so now I'm back on track to reaching that goal.
Y’all…I wrote and produced a solo cabaret. As I type these words I’m still kind of in shock that I pulled it off. I’ve wanted to produce my own show since I moved home in 2015, but I’ve been too afraid. However, if you’ve been following my blog for a while you already know that my motto is “do it afraid,” and honey, I did it terrified!
It's the second Monday of the month which means it's time for another blog post! I had planned to share how transitioning to an alkaline vegan lifestyle is going, but I'm currently producing my first solo show ever and it's taking up all of my time. However, it's 100% related to the blog, because I'll be sharing details about my eczema journey and dealing with various insecurities. If you've been following me for a while you know my motto is "do it afraid," and believe me, producing a solo show for the first time is scary! I'm doing so many things I've never done before, but I'm so excited to perform and share my story.
Well friends, it's been two and a half years since I've done a Dr. Aron Method Update. Like I said in my last post, I wasn't updating, because I felt very stagnant in my healing process. 2018 taught me that I have to be deliberate with my thoughts and actions, and that's exactly what I'm doing in 2019. I've been sticking to an alkaline vegan diet, and I talk about it all in the vlog below. Is my eczema gone? No. Has it improved? Yes. Do I plan to continue? Or course! My mantra for this year is "my healing is being manifested," and I believe that with my whole heart. Check out the vlog for more!
2019 is the year of Leveling Up. As cliche as that might sound, 2018 taught me that when you’re not operating in the fullness that God called you to operate in, you’ll never reach the potential you know you have, and the only way to reach that potential is to…Level Up.
Despite professional successes and being seemingly productive, I felt really stagnant in my growth as an artist and a human being last year. For starters, I wrote one blog post in 2018. One. In that post I detailed my struggle with anxiety attacks and frustrations with my health. It makes sense that it was the only post I was able to complete, because that anxiety was rooted in an unwillingness to change in order to grow and move forward. Understanding that I was my own worst enemy last year was a hard pill to swallow, because on the surface it seemed like I was doing everything right. But going through the motions and actually changing are two completely different things. What do I mean by that? Let’s start with my health.
There was a time when I thought people who had anxiety attacks were crazy...then I started having them. Today was my day off. I had lofty plans of how productive I was going to be, but after showering and getting ready I couldn’t make it out the door. While looking in the mirror attempting to make myself presentable, my neck was itching uncontrollably. After about five minutes of intermittent scratching I let out a squeal of frustration and began hitting the wall to relieve some stress. Next thing I knew tears were running down my cheeks and I was struggling to get adequate air through my lungs. I attempted to pull it together multiple times, thinking about all of the things I needed to do: take grandma to the nursing home to see grandpa, cook, clean, taxes (I actually wrote this in April - bear with me), write, workout; this never-ending to do list amplifying the anxiety rather than helping me move forward with the rest of my day. So I did what any self-sufficient 28 year old would do…I called my mom.
Hey friends! It's been quite some time since I've updated the blog. I'm going to fix that very soon with a Dr. Aron update, but in the meantime, check out my girl Elle's vlog! We talk about skincare, living with eczema, makeup, diet and helpful products. Enjoy!
Hello friends! As many of you know, I played Deena Jones in Dreamgirls at Village Theatre over the summer. It was an amazing, awarding experience that I'm so grateful to have had. I grew as a person and an artist in the process and loved the challenge of working on one of my favorite shows. I could go on about how great it was, but instead I want to share the challenges I faced during the process. Dealing with the pressure of playing such an iconic character while simultaneously battling with eczema and my own insecurities, I reverted back to old habits of negative thinking. Instead of continuing to fall down the black hole of negativity, as I like to call it, I chose to feed myself positive thoughts to turn things around. I talk about it all below!
I'm Lauren a.k.a. Just
Du Pree, and this is my blog about healing, self-love, and faith. After reading the blog check out some of my original work in the videos section, then head to upcoming to see what I'm working on next. Thanks for stopping by!